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Monday, July 30, 2007
hee... 3 days to blog abt le... might be a long and with loads of pics one.... -_-" flew into your heart at [6:41 PM]
Saturday, July 28, 2007
I FEEL SHITTY NOW!! shall not comment on those pple now in case i dirty my mouth....
flew into your heart at [7:57 AM]
Thursday, July 26, 2007
yeah... finally i decide to blog again... hee.. happy right? excited right? flew into your heart at [8:42 PM]
Sunday, July 22, 2007
i decide to desert my precious blog for days... wanna take a break le... things crop up and i'm struggling to stay alive... ya... i am... the suffocating feeling is haunting me... my door had been shut down le.. so i'll jus live life peacefully right now.. and like wad hx say, god will lead me through... and i believe tt yes, memories will fade and everything is gonna be fine... i will tend to forget somethings today, forget some tomorrow and finally one day, i can't recall a thing.. right?? no pics - no mood.. sorry... tired.. bye!
flew into your heart at [10:26 PM]
Friday, July 20, 2007
nothing much special to blog today... it's jus another day without much emo... lolz... isn't it good?? haha... peacefully~~ but anyway, receive quite a number of prank calls whereby the caller calls and when i pick up and say "hello", den the other end put down... very fun eh? flew into your heart at [11:22 PM]
Thursday, July 19, 2007
everything just went so smooth today.... and i deeply felt tt god really loves me to the core.. it has only been one day tt the job get back to me, I GOT IT!!! with my dream rank as an officer and also the $$... flew into your heart at [10:52 PM]
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
today was early for work too.. yeah, so i stroll there... and yup.. met mad LINDA and i was like la la la~~~ bark the whole day at me.... and i was hack care.. that's my choice... TO IGNORE! lolz... so i happily pass my day like tt.. hee.. :D flew into your heart at [8:58 PM]
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
today is such a busy day for me. though no work, woke up @ 7 plus to go print documents for my interview in the afternoon... and went back to TP to get my cert so as to have a complete set of documents. flew into your heart at [7:36 PM]
Monday, July 16, 2007
haiz.. so sian.. work is boring.. customer is always asking endless question tt makes u vomit blood! this morning woke up too early, so walk instead of taking a bus to work.. left work place @ 6 sharp and walk back again... and all i did for today is jus walking~~~ flew into your heart at [10:39 PM]
Sunday, July 15, 2007
ok, try out my new 'fake lashes' tt attracts so many attention +comments... LoLz.. how is it? really fake? :X Haha.. no matter wad.. i'm happy abt it. after service, due to the sudden cancel of ATM, went to tampines mall to have our own outing (ben,lynn,hx,eugene and me)... hee.. took neos (posted at lynn's and hx's blog le, so lazy to post it le :p), have lunch and had the 'drifting' session @ arcade.. went home with eugene around 5 plus and head for airport to send my brother-in-law off to england+germany for work... hahas... there goes some photos taken: went to penny's father funeral right after the send off till 11pm... so tired for the day... zzzZZZ.. still having my sore throat and flu, but can't believe i still so active... hee.. 2 more photos from my birthday celebration... and tt's abt all... yawnz... Night night~~ :) flew into your heart at [11:15 PM]
elva (anna's daughter) + me the 4 "gossipers" family + 2nd uncle family (daddy side) flew into your heart at [5:14 PM]
hi folks! so happy to join the bloggers pool... all thanks to my one and only flew into your heart at [12:40 AM]
My Name : Be||e Be||e
Favourites
Bee Bee
Dislikes
Those liar, rough talking, heartless, not honest ones.
Wishlist
To be Tai Tai
Memories
*July 2007
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My Most Talkative Friend - Lynn
Simply a Girl who sometimes dun even know wad she really wants... |ove being cared for and dote on... Trying her best to fill her world with laughter and happiness...
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start with saturday.... erm... went to uncle pee hock's church wedding + wedding dinner @ the Continental Hotel (bugis there lor)... during both ceremony and dinner, they keep telling the love story and the marriage of uncle pee hock and his late wife (esther). So touching tt whenever i recall it, tears jus flow out of my eyes.... wat i can say is tt, uncle pee hock is a GREAT man! i mean it and i hope to be able to have a man like him... :)
was a tiring day and i didn't have my nap at all... -_- no wonder i am sooooo damn tired today (monday)!!! lolz.... after church ceremony chatted with joshua and lynn for almost 3 hours... haha... all so big mouth... :p headed home abt 4 to prepare for the dinner... lalala~~ put my fake lashes on again... haha....
pics on tt day (on the car + hotel continental + @home):
take 1
take 2
take 3
act PIG!!!
aunty diana + me
da mei + xiao mei
me + lao dou
the "UNCLE" gang... lolz
da ge wor... act james bond.. -_-
shy uncle jian cheng + extra behind wanna fall on him... :p
eat half way see papa got white hair.. saw it??
drunk da ge... face soooo red~~
y r u still looking at me???
sunday le wor.. went to service in the morning, was late ... :p but k la... still can see 85% of it... :) well done guys!! went up to chinese service at 1130 and suddenly emo le... dun feel like going out with them le... oops.. anyway, can't push it away and so went to marina square eat, play and act.. lolz... as usual when we're out... haha.. :D
was fun though... walked home with hx and chatted for nearly 2 hours lor... nice chatting ya... reach home around 11pm!!! tired... dying le lor... lolz... sleep at 12 plus... cannot tahan already!
it was monday morning... monday BLUES... drag myself to work and survive a day.. nothing much happen and after work, went to have my fringe cut... finally!!! have been wanting to cut since last week.. no time... hee.... and i look like tt now.. pls dun laugh.... :(nice anot?? -_-
I PON WORK FOR 2 DAYS~~ SO HAPPY!!!
ok... start from tuesday... went to sign my appointment letter and went for a free full body check up... yaya... so it's quite a boring day!!
on wednesday, met dear lan lan in the morning, went to lunch at a korean restaurant.. cheap, nice and filling.... hee... the waiter there so helpful, even volunteer to take picture for us.. lolz... so pai seh... like kukoo lor... but nvm, its interesting~~the pic tt the waiter volunteer to take for us...
the complimentary dishes.. damn nice lor~~
our love ice lemon tea~~
after lunch, went to our favourite kbox and sang from 2pm to 7 pm... hee... so shiok leh.. remind me abt the past and also recall so many songs tt i love so much... haha... but no pics there.. so sad... :( cos too engrossed in singing!! lalala~~~ anyway, the lighting there also very dark there lor... ok... some more random pics as follows:
ok... now for thursday... this morning reached office to tender resignation... so scared and everything was like so tensed lor... manager nag and ask for the reason of leaving... and of cos i insisted on leaving and golden handshake with OCBC le... hee... one month to go before the real goodbye! so i'll just hang on~~ erm... after the resignation, some colleagues not happy and some happy for me... i dun quite care also... haha... i'm leaving anyway~~ na ni na ni pu pu!! LOLz.... the mad dog stopped barking and the black face officer stop some of her nonsense le... everything was quite peaceful with me...
thanks god for everything.. he's the one who is behind me!! yeah~ everything is gonna start at another fresh new phrase for me and i'm preparing to chanllenge it... here my laughter and my joy comes back... u guys miss it bahz... hehe.. be prepare for the thunder roaring laughter and the earthquake like presence of me~~~ HAHA...
ok... let's stop for now.... shall update u guys tomorrow probably after my haircut ba.... see ya~~ :D
anywayz, hack care lahz... if u wan to call and chat, u're most welcome... but if u r jus out to make fun or anything, jus go off ba... haha... :D
ok.. leading this sunday.. gonna to do the powerpoint and prepare the song sheets.. shall stop here.. look forward to the pics this weekend.. will try my best to take as many as i can.. haha... simply love taking photos...
TATA!!
this morning, bee pick me up to work.. went mac for breakfast and during lunch, he came too... i'm so delighted to see his effort.. and things kind of change at night... bee called while heading back to camp tt his going out with his friends (whom i dun like him to hang around with cos always overnight and drink!) tomorrow... i was like -_-" nt again...
i suddenly feel tt every promises tt bee made is like meant to be break.... and recall all the details during the unpleasant past... it has really been a nightmare to me.. looking back or jus the thought of it just bring the tears flowing out of my eyes... the sufferings we both went through becos of such issue... i really dun wish to have the history to repeat itself... how???
letting go ever crossed my mind... but its jus hard to let go of the long run r/s tt is already 6 years... ya... indeed.. sobx... LETTING GO... maybe one day when my heart really die and everything from bee doesn't hurt anymore, jus go numb...
as for now, my heart is only beating slower and slower... problems keep arising between us and it seems like bee no longer gives me the really secured feeling.. the msg he sent is something like this : "u jus wan me to suffer, right?" "i'm like living in a jail life.. i rather stay in camp cos there is more freedom than i'm out of camp" (meaning by my side)... :'(
i admit tt i'm very possesive.. and when it's mine, it's MINE!! i can't tolerate any nonsense and i really hate it... bee makes me feel like he's a robot, and i'm the controller... and the robot is now going to breakdown due to the massive order and pressure given by the controller... but i'm wad i'm... i tried to control myself... and tt's the best i can do.. jus tt bee doesn't give a damn and jus ignore me as a ridiculous and difficult person... *cries*
when can bee really understand? when can he realise wad i'm going through? letting go is the most unwanted thing i'll ever do... it's hard.. getting harder and harder...
this afternoon, mum and sis came to visit me @ the branch and went for lunch (HANS).... xixi... went home 6 sharp.. and everybody was like so jealous to see me leave... hahas.. i work fast and smart.. tt's y... lolz..
today bee is out le~~~ yes... no longer lonely and sianz... haha... most importantly, bee came to visit me at my house too!!! haha... so happy... someone will be there when i nag abt the mad dog LINDA... haha... i'm bad in calling her this name.. but i think she certainly deserve this rank! LOLZ.. tt's wad happen when u step into BELLE's protected territory.. haha..
didn't take any photos these few days... cos its weekday~~ nvm... wait for tomorrow... going have a photo spree~~ hee.. okok... byez****
interview wasn't tt good.. the interviewers are so unfriendly... so i wonder if i would get it... anyway, there isn't smooth sailing all the way... so, i just wait for any news lor... but after they told me abt the plans for the position, i also don't really like.. wat to do now??? so lost... haiz, so i choose not to think about anything else le.. AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
after the interview, i ate loads of things... and came home to SLEEP! my favourite past time. lolz... till now... just waiting for the time to come and doze off.... (sounds like a pig) haha... :D
finally came back home and found some entertainment by chatting aka 'crapping' online... hahas..
but.............. bee always seems so busy to me.. morning call him, he say busy and put down.. no msg or call from him till lunch time i called again.. this time round, his working on something + playing a fool with his fren while talking to me... tt wasn't enjoyable at all! chat for 5 min, he say he busy and put down again but this time round, promised to call back... and he did, but the conversation lasted 2 min.. msged him round 5 plus, he managed to reply after half an hour.. :(
haiz... after a few msg, no more news le... till i msg him again at 9 plus... no reply till 10 plus he called.. i wonder wad makes him tt busy?? sobx... i'm just like an item he left on the shelves...
i never answer his call... cos it's always till i throw some temper den he will start to care.. why??
so sad... :'( so... jus let the tears roll down my cheeks and let them bring me to sleep ba... night!
i love this song by maria carey... and let it accompany me tonight... :'(




me + mama + papada ge (joe) + papa,mama + me
my birthday cake~~
my guests...
whole family!
cute princess Reina***

my presents... (- ang pow)
beloved dear... once again, thanks for everything!
ok, lemme start with sharing my job today... was down with flu + sore throat,
but still managed to crawl to work.. lolz.. while attending to one customer, it's
so kind of her to offer a packet of tissue.. tt really make my day! den came bee's
msg telling me tt he's ill too.. ke lian cong... same with me..
after work go home and rest till the next moment i open my eyes is already 5 plus
le... about 2pm bee told me he go sleep till 7 still never call or msg me...
*angry* but he finally called @ 7 plus after i spike him with an sms... haha..
got tricked by papa tt land me in bugis.. haiz.. sim lim square is a damn boring
place for me.. -_-" straight after, dine @ the food centre and den shop for abt
half an hour ba.. (ok lahz, better than nothing) LOLZ!!!
came home and saw the surprise bee gave me... still very excited abt it! hope tt
the music playlist problem can be solved soon so tt u guys can enjoy them too..
NIGHT NIGHT...zzzzzZZZ...
Birthdate : 2nd of July
Email : Ask Me~ :Þ
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